Publication later this year of "Looking For Love: A Life After Brian", yet another book claiming to reveal the inside story of the life of Shelley-Lulette Sizemore, prompts, not the usual sigh of jaded exasperation, but rather the now customary hope that we may at last come to understand this complex woman in all her multi-faceted mystery. As she herself has said in numerous interviews: "I seem to be an enigma even to myself and the deeper I dig, the less I understand: mine is a life lived in the shadows of a youthful encounter: an attempt always to fill a hole that was once stretched to the limit by a man who was far bigger than any man I have encountered since. He was huge and since him, no one has ever come even close to touching me so deeply." So there is much to tell but how to tell it and how to tell it as it needs to be told?
The face that launched a thousand conversations; but which is the real Shelley-Lulette Sizemore?
Like every previous attempt at analysis, Looking for Love poses a simple yet fundamental question: is it loneliness, restlessness or an urgent need to find satisfaction which has driven the 55 year old model, actress, calendar girl, authoress and celebrity into an endless - even meaningless - round of engagements, encounters and relationships? For a girl from Spindle Street Branscombe, Ms Sizemore has come a long way. Seemingly at home in the hotels, studios and airport lounges of the West Country's major capitals from Hilton to Poolestown, few would suspect the depth of the scars or the extent of the crippling insecurities left by the tribulations which have dogged her path since her life-changing encounter in the early 1990s with the world's leading Culinary Bioethicist. Yet those close to her (and none have been closer than the author of Looking For Love, younger sister Courtney-Cocks Sizemore) have always sensed her alarming fragility and deep unease in the uncompromising spotlight of the public gaze. "I am essentially a very private woman" she once told a TV interviewer, "and resist intrusions into my innermost nooks and crannies. As a young girl I was perhaps t too trusting; too easily penetrated. Now I keep everything firmly under wraps. I make better choices and open myself up infrequently and reluctantly ... it's called survival".
So was Scene of the Crime - published earlier this year and still available from The Threadbone Press through their bestselling Crimeshelf imprint - an autobiographical expiation, a form of release? Not at all says the stunningly attractive and still feisty singleton "I am a dam waiting to burst: all it needs is the right man to apply the right pressure in the right place and I will flood the oceans".
Looking for Love: A Life after Brian" will be published by The Threadbone Press in the Autumn.
Looking For Love: A Life After Brian will be published in the Autumn by The Threadbone Press, though pirate copies are already on sale in Devon where Dorset Copyright Law has no jurisdiction. Avid readers are said to be crossing county boundaries in numbers to access the title immediately.